F.I.F.T.H

Dear F.IF.TH I have been with my boyfriend for almost 5 years. He is one of the best people I know but unfortunately my anxiety can not allow me to let him in. It has reached a point where I am mentally and physically destroying myself by staying in this relationship. In a perfect world I would want to be with him. Please Help!

Dear F.I.F.T.H FAM, First off I am so sorry to hear you are struggling. Please know that it is ok not be ok, and you should be so proud of yourself for being able to recognize that and wanting to put yourself first. Unfortionetly some times in life the right person comes into our lives at the wrong time. In a perfect world you would work but this world is far from perfect. Any relationship that is causing you to mentally and physcally destroys yourself is not a healthy one. Does not mean it is anyone fault, it just means that you still need time to find yourself and that ok. The best thing you could do for the both of you is to walk away and work on yourself.  I have always really loved the quote "If you really love someone let them go, if they come back to you it was meant to be, if they don't then they weren't the one." Just because right now is not the right time does not mean someday won't. You built 5 years together, you went through trials and tribulations and that will not be forgotten by either of you. If you continue along mentally and physically destroying yourself either you or he will snap. Resentments will build and hatred will grow.